Before I leave this world I want to love.....
I want to have a loving passionate relationship with my Father in Heaven.
I want to make sure my children understand how much I love them and how much of a joy they are to me...
I want to make sure my dad, mom and stepparents know how much I appreciate who they have become in my life...
I want my brother to remember me with a smile and excel in my name.
I want to know what true, unconditional love feels like from a man....
Before I leave this world
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
The funniest thing that happened
Ok, so I usually don't get too candid with my personal life on line but I really gotta make someone laugh as much as I did today. So I had been dealing with this guy here, he's younger than me and over the course of a couple of weeks him and I just drifted apart. No beef no arguing he was just too needy and that doesn't fit into my plans right now or later. So I go into the grocery store and I see his young acting self and this mofo starts running.....I mean literally running around in the store like I was gonna say something to him. The funny thing about it was he was with some woman who looked like she was about 35, and he kept leaving her. She was talking to him and he just kept running from her and the poor thing was just looking as dumb as can be. I couldn't stop laughing, I was laughing so hard that I had tears in my eyes. The other thing was that I was on the phone with my homegirl and wasn't paying him any attention. His azz should run in a 5k marathon the way he was breaking out in that store.
I don't understand why though, we were never in a relationship, I never had expectations, don't know why he thought he had to run and lie.....i'm still laughing at that shit. lol
I don't understand why though, we were never in a relationship, I never had expectations, don't know why he thought he had to run and lie.....i'm still laughing at that shit. lol
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I love u (not finished)
I love you boy....I love you from the top of your dreads, your dark skin that reminds me of creamy milk chocolate or double fudge cookies that have been left in the oven too long. I love your sexy brown eyes and the way they stare at me, when I have to look up to you...them soft juicy lips that drive me crazy when you kiss me. I love the way your deep voice calls out "Cha" come here, or when you call and say " how was your day baby" ? I love the way your breath feels on my neck when you embrace me. I love the way your chest feels when I lay my head on you when you are in the bed watching the game. I love the way your strong manly hands feel when you rub all over me, when you touch me and take me to ecstacy. Man you just don't know how safe I feel when you hold me tight during our love making sessions, during our long talks that last into the wee hours of the night. I love the way your legs feel pressed up again mine, the muscular shape of them as if you have been playing ball all of your life, they way they support the strong manly 6'4 stature of the great man you are.
Oh, I love you man. I love the way you looked the other night with your polo shirt on, nice big boy jeans and those J's to match the fitted. You just don't know what you do you to me when you dress like the D boys....don't get me wrong, I love the way you switch that swag up to carry on with your professional life the way you do. Damn boy you just don't know what you do to me. The only problem is, you're only in my dreams.
Oh, I love you man. I love the way you looked the other night with your polo shirt on, nice big boy jeans and those J's to match the fitted. You just don't know what you do you to me when you dress like the D boys....don't get me wrong, I love the way you switch that swag up to carry on with your professional life the way you do. Damn boy you just don't know what you do to me. The only problem is, you're only in my dreams.
Reminiscing
I am sitting back looking at my 32 years and I must say that I have been blessed. I grew up with 3 parents, my mom, step dad and my dad. My dad was and still is the love of my life. I am the true definition of a daddy's girl. It was my dad who took me on my first date @ 12, he surprised me with a dozen of roses and quality time, he surprised me also because he was in the military and he made me feel special. I won't ever forget my 12th birthday. Honestly that should have set the tone of what kind of man I should have been paired with but instead I attracted the opposite.
But nonetheless I still have managed to think of all of the times God has provided for me. I have met some wonderful people in my life mean the world to me and I won't loose them for the world. The people in my past whom I had differences with realize that I am still a great person. I have been blessed with the most beautiful, wonderful, terrible, different, aggravating, loving, mean and remarkable little creatures that I think I could ever be blesssed with. I wouldn't trade them for the world either. I have also had some health issues that have made me re think the way I run off at the mouth and treat people. and bottom line is I LOVE PEOPLE.......
But nonetheless I still have managed to think of all of the times God has provided for me. I have met some wonderful people in my life mean the world to me and I won't loose them for the world. The people in my past whom I had differences with realize that I am still a great person. I have been blessed with the most beautiful, wonderful, terrible, different, aggravating, loving, mean and remarkable little creatures that I think I could ever be blesssed with. I wouldn't trade them for the world either. I have also had some health issues that have made me re think the way I run off at the mouth and treat people. and bottom line is I LOVE PEOPLE.......
Have I
Have I smiled at you enough to show you how much you fascinate me????
Have I kissed you enough to show you how much I adore you????
Have I held your hand enough to know how much I enjoy your touch????
Have I looked into your eyes enough to show you how safe I feel with you??
Haven't I made love to you like you were the last man in the universe???
If you can answer yes to any of these questions then why are you acting as if you don't know my feelings.
Have I kissed you enough to show you how much I adore you????
Have I held your hand enough to know how much I enjoy your touch????
Have I looked into your eyes enough to show you how safe I feel with you??
Haven't I made love to you like you were the last man in the universe???
If you can answer yes to any of these questions then why are you acting as if you don't know my feelings.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Boy please (Resume Review)
Why is it that every time you see me you are trying to get my number or come to me with those week azz lines that I really don't feel like falling for. Maybe if you had caught me down the street on low self esteem lane or fall for anything court, I would have feel for your typical lines, but since you here you may as well sit down enjoy the ride and let me ask you a few questions about this resume you have given me.
Ok so here goes, do you have any goals? How about short term goals or long term goals? Or better yet where do you see yourself in 5 years? Cause if you don't know where you are heading, how can you have direction. Do you currently have a job or career? Do you like your current employer? Do you have an IRA or 401K plan set up for your retirement? Do you have a bank account and established credit? A job is just the stepping stone for a career, and if you have yourself set up for success in the long run , that means you have major plans for your life. Do you have a car? If accepted for your friendship, I just wanna make sure I don't have to drive to every movie or dinner date. Do you have any kids? If so how many? How many baby's mommas do you have? Are you just a father, daddy, sperm donor, or DNA provider? I'm just trying to see if what your relationship pattern is and if you know how to let go and just be a father and be friends with your child/children's mother. Do you have any mental issues or possessive traits? I just need to make sure you don't try to hurt me or act crazy when I do something to benefit me and mine. Why do you think that everywoman wants to be your lover, girlfriend, or wife? What makes you friend, lover, boyfriend, husband or shit even cut friend material? What do you have to bring into this friendship/relationship that will COMPLIMENT me? Just want to make sure you are not overly confident in yourself, over confident in ways that your feelings may get hurt or you may be brought back to reality. What is it that made you wanna stop and apply for employment with me? I just wanna make sure you are up for the job, that you can sustain long tiring demanding hours. And why do you think that since I am an older woman that I am weak, despearate, and just plain stupid. Just know that whatever happens will only happen because I want it to . Can a woman feel secure or safe in letting you take control of the friendship/relationship? And would you be worried about what another brother can bring to the table? If your up on your game no one could come between or break the foundation that you built.
Ok so here goes, do you have any goals? How about short term goals or long term goals? Or better yet where do you see yourself in 5 years? Cause if you don't know where you are heading, how can you have direction. Do you currently have a job or career? Do you like your current employer? Do you have an IRA or 401K plan set up for your retirement? Do you have a bank account and established credit? A job is just the stepping stone for a career, and if you have yourself set up for success in the long run , that means you have major plans for your life. Do you have a car? If accepted for your friendship, I just wanna make sure I don't have to drive to every movie or dinner date. Do you have any kids? If so how many? How many baby's mommas do you have? Are you just a father, daddy, sperm donor, or DNA provider? I'm just trying to see if what your relationship pattern is and if you know how to let go and just be a father and be friends with your child/children's mother. Do you have any mental issues or possessive traits? I just need to make sure you don't try to hurt me or act crazy when I do something to benefit me and mine. Why do you think that everywoman wants to be your lover, girlfriend, or wife? What makes you friend, lover, boyfriend, husband or shit even cut friend material? What do you have to bring into this friendship/relationship that will COMPLIMENT me? Just want to make sure you are not overly confident in yourself, over confident in ways that your feelings may get hurt or you may be brought back to reality. What is it that made you wanna stop and apply for employment with me? I just wanna make sure you are up for the job, that you can sustain long tiring demanding hours. And why do you think that since I am an older woman that I am weak, despearate, and just plain stupid. Just know that whatever happens will only happen because I want it to . Can a woman feel secure or safe in letting you take control of the friendship/relationship? And would you be worried about what another brother can bring to the table? If your up on your game no one could come between or break the foundation that you built.
Last question on this interview? Why should you be selected for this position? What is so unique about you that would make me select you and not someone else?
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